corner

a small piece to the puzzle
i know
grateful for only being able
to occupy a corner of your mind

the desire for a mutual addiction
washed away in the responsibility
of my everyday
perhaps another time

but not today, not this time
and half the battle is just
keeping you in a corner of my mind
because you threaten to take it all

snapshots

in the spaces of the everyday
there's a part of the puzzle
lost to the wind
but these snapshots of my life
minutes we steal
from the bank of time
I don't remember anything at all
I don't know the day of the week
or the hour at hand
time flows through fingers
like water rushing on

one day

one day my silence will break free
caught the words
on the tip of my tongue again
waiting to wait it out
and hope for a better day

the better day always comes
and happy is my quiet mouth
but the hard ones follow too
and i'm caught in the cycle again
almost tipping
wishing for bravery
and waiting again

lost

lost a little piece of me today
fell through the cracks
hidden under the sheets
and i can't find it anymore

not th way i thought
it would turn out to be
is it a test or is it more
i don't regret a moment

but i lost a part of me today
and i can't find it anywhere
anymore

wilting

i thought i had it all
almost
a heart
success
a new life

but i turn around
and see the mirror
how much of myself
did i lose
or change in the process

happiness is fleeting
a roller coaster of highs
and then sharp drops
gaining so much
but losing parts of me in the process

lost
again

fine lines

past few months
too many have been
pushing the limits of my soul
pushing until i'm
almost breaking down

breaking away from the
person i once was
driving away people i
thought i cared about

this is not how i want to be
but the car is speeding now
too fast and i can't stop it
on a collision course
to something unwanted

but then there's you
pushing the limits of my soul
almost difficult to breathe
and the collision course here
i'm just waiting for the crash now

stolen

day to day

i think of you and smile

little memories of the 

days past

get me through 

the days tomorrow

little moments we steal

a few minutes there

and an hour or so here

stolen from the everyday

and holding onto the memory

is enough

until we steal some more

different

thought of you today
and i smiled a little bit
too often my mind has been turning tricks
distractions flood every cell of my being

maybe it's complicated
maybe it's different
but at the heart and soul of it all
i know

having part of your heart
part of your mind
sharing part of your life
even for just a minute

living the truth of a favorite phrase
"never regret anything
because at one point, it was all
you ever wanted"

some days pass on easier than others
but at the end of it all
tomorrow I could cease to exist
and be thankful to have had
those moments with you

Someone else's life

9am and I'm out the door
Heart falling when I walk away
From you and your sleepy eyes
Doing what needs to be done
But hating every minute of doing it

I've been living out of
Someone else's life
Whenever I'm with you

Days pass on and stretch
Into what feels like months
Fully knowing what I signed up for
But wishing for you everyday

I've been living out of
Someone else's life
Whenever I'm with you

So tonight take me away
From the scheduling and the
Obligations of the everyday
And to watch the peacefulness of your sleep
If only for a moment...

cookie cutter lovers

they are everywhere
under the trees, crossing streets
happiness radiating from their
hands held together in open air

but you and i walk on
fingers brushing, not touching
and my heart skips a beat

we're not cookie cutter lovers
hidden under layers of fabric
in this story we've begun
so we walk on and on

days pass and i sometimes wonder
how we reached this moment
walking miles from each other
but somehow returning to this point

so you and i walk on
fingers brushing, not touching
and my heart skips another beat

we're not cookie cutter lovers
hidden under layers of fabric
in this story we've begun
so we walk on and on

all the old songs

the ones i used to listen
and sing to
of happiness and heartbreak
of love and sadness

always understanding the sad ones
wishing to feel the happy ones
in moments like these
the old songs make sense to me now

silence

don't speak
don't move
just be here with me
in the loudness and the silence

days pass by
and this rat race
tears me apart every moment
of every day

but in the silence
of your strong arms
i feel peace again
and i can handle everything this world
throws against me

happiness

never one to complain
or be content
to get what you want
and everything at the same time
only brings your focus
to what you don't have

but pause for a moment
and think of what you do
remind yourself
that everything you ever wanted,
you have
that the little things you don't have
are irrelevant in this moment
that your happiness
is in this moment
and that's all that matters

breathless

the songs they always sing
of love and happiness
of heartbeats and breathlessness

never understood what they meant
never knew how they captured
the exact feelings into words

but there was yesterday
and the day before then
and the day before that

sitting here now
and listening to those songs
the lyrics are a truth in my life

secrets

i always wondered what
the secret was
to finding another person
with the same feelings
the same intentions
at the same time as me

now on the other side of the fence
i still don't have the secret
all i know is
things happen as they're meant to be
and that's all i ever need