nothing is forever

the moon wanes 

and beauty fades

flowers bloom and wilt

and the apples end up bruised 

nothing is forever

in this world, this life

nothing will remain the same

but when you call my name

i feel it 

that this love will be the closest

thing to forever 

never knowing what tomorrow

will bring or take from me

knowing at any moment

this all could disappear 

nothing is forever

in this world, this life

nothing will remain the same

but when you call my name

i feel it 

that this love will be the closest

thing to forever

can't guarantee i'll be there always

with you here or there 

but you'll always have a place to rest

in this heart of mine 

expectation

trying not to have any 

because it's only gotten in the way

given me pain and heartache 

wasting my time on waiting

and then something comes along

throws my resolve out the door

and here I go again

walking on the hot coals

for the feeling of hope

I won't fall back into the cycle 

of expectation and heartache again

right ones

seems to be a theme in my life
these past few months
falling hard for the ones I love
and blind to maybe those
I've passed along the way

always chasing after the wrong ones
running too fast to see
the right ones in from of me
and maybe I'm pushing away
one of the right ones

for most, I hold nothing back
give you all my love
all my efforts and all my heart
for few, I play this game
baiting to test how far you'll go

always chasing after the wrong ones

running too fast to see

the right ones in from of me

and maybe I'm pushing away

one of the right ones 

how do I stop this cycle
how do I break free
from chasing ghosts
to holding something real

lasts

something small
something sweet
almost forgot what it is like
for someone to smile
and make my heart
beat

But I turn around
and suddenly it's gone
everything good
rarely lasts
isn't that the way it goes

sunday

almost thought I had it all
there was an issue
but I was coping
there was a bruise
but I was healing

then you walk down the hall
and suddenly life
has run off at 100mph
I wish I could stop chasing
I wish life would chase me
for once

Don't give me your hand
don't make me follow you
don't make me fall
into another hole
don't plant emotions into my heart
because I've been down that path before

waves

waves crash against my heart
and suddenly
you are the sea
and I am the cliff
and you chip away at
the bits and pieces of who I am
the rocks that tumble
signs of my weakness when
it comes to you
I've given too much of
my heart away already
you haven't given me a reason
to stop loving you
but when the waves slow to a calm
I wonder how much
you really care

and I'll try to only
let you make my happiness
but I can't and I won't
let you take my happiness

enough

so the little things

nothing fancy

nothing special 

daily routines 

a little full cart 

jokes and laughs 

here and there

i don't need anything 

without hope or agenda

happiness is in the moment

and for now 

enough