Patience
A curse and a virtue
Strength
To walk away is something I don't have
Love
A big heart that's now half empty
Run
But my feet won't touch the ground
Hope
Because that's what you give me
Little
How I feel when I think of this
Control
Something I lost when I met you
Waiting
All I seem to do these days
Tears
That have our names written on it
Sadness
Like a weight on my lungs

Come bring a smile to this heart again

心话

心中有苦
说不出
眼里有泪
哭不下

找不到我的一部分
心跑到那方向

跑来跑去
还是跑到你身旁
用远里不开

等这你给我及会
远以给你一切
可你的手
我抓不到
你的心
只给我一半

乐了

在我心中
不能没有你
但站冷风里
我乐了
要我等多久
告诉我
不是不愿意等
而是要等多久
跟这你
有笑有哭
但现在
哭比笑
伤心多呢
只想一睡
远走高飞

Scattered

Pictures and memories
Scattered all across the floor
Remnants of the good times
And I stare wistfully into
Once smiling faces

Questions I ask myself everyday
Replaying moments in my mind
Half trying to figure it out
And half of me too tired to care anymore

Of all the ones ever on my mind
Congratulations
Not for breaking everything
But just breaking down a part of me

Exhaustion comes in many forms
Physical mental emotional
And I'm just tired all over
So wake me up tomorrow
And show me what exactly it's come to

2AM

I had so much for you
Can't describe everything I would've given up
If only for your happiness

Consequences of caring too much
Worrying about you and I too often
Even big hearts have a breaking point

But you broke a part of me
Somewhere between the fall
Lost me in the silence of no words

So where does this leave us
Too many nights spent in tears over you
Do I let you play puppeteer
Or do the broken parts
Simply stop

battle

half of this heart
chasing all the things i want
from life
from you

half of this heart
not doing what i should
with my life
with you

always a battle between
what i want
and what i should

so when can i cross the line
so wants and shoulds become one

take it all

woke up this morning

thought about it last night

that anything less than everything 

is nothing

i'm a hunter and

i can't give anything less than 

everything

that's just who i am 

so just take it all 

i'm giving you everything for 

less than everything in return 

just know one day 

i'll wake up again and realize

that this is not enough 

and when that day comes

i'll have to save what's left

and walk away 

might be

this is the first time

everything new and exciting

it's you

some days i sleep

some days i cry

but most days this heart

smiles in spite of it all 

i can be patient

i can pace my attention

i can live my life 

i am stronger than this

might be the first time 

but for all the first times in the world

I'd rather it be this

than anything else out there

find

woke up this morning

and I couldn't find a part of me anymore

faces smiling but only a facade

i miss the way we were

how did i get here

and where do i go now

how do I find that little part of me

and how do i find you again

walls

the walls that enclose our lives
brick and concrete
and i'm starting to see
the beginning of a construction crew
laying the groundwork

how do I make them go away
didn't order for walls between
these two lives i call mine
waiting for a complete breakdown
so we can build something up again

head on the wall

so last night was the last time
last time i swear
the tears shed for a tornado
waiting to touch land from the skies

your words
"a wake up call"
and my thoughts
suddenly collide
because you're always the right one

so it's only time to wake up
from this dream i've been living
and hit my head on the wall
to wake me up from deep sleep

today is the new day
first day of the rest of my life
and walking on my own
well,
it's the only thing that matters now

falling apart

thought i had a grip
thought life was moving on
thought i was running
the right race

but the floor's been pulled
from beneath me and i'm left
floating, falling, plummeting

there's nothing for me to hold onto
except for myself
no one there to catch me
except the emptiness of a cold wind

i'm drowning under th water
burdened under this weight
i'm falling apart
and i don't know how to fix me

drowning

the morning sun appears
and eyes open, groggy
was last night only a dream

just the other day
i wanted off the train
a one way ticket to somewhere
anywhere than here

but i'm not strong enough
and i'm still a passenger on
this roller coaster we call our lives

and my head spins
heart racing and some days
i can't breathe because
these thoughts are drowning me

running

the world is a funny place
and life has a strange sense of humor
last spring all torn up
agony of falling without
someone to catch me

and now i'm still falling
and who will catch me
i don't know
the life i had, the one i knew
flew out the window as
did my sanity, my happiness

i ran all the way around the track
this time
running away from one to another
and finally meeting up with one again
how many laps do I have to go
until i'll just be done with it all?

home

So lost and long
From where I used to be
Only a year ago
Young and running in
A direction I'm not in now

When did life change
When did I take this turn
The moment when
Priorities shuffled around
And the ones I loved
Left them at home

Today finally went back
For just a short visit
Long overdue
But it feels like home again

innocence

close my eyes and i see
a young girl, thirteen
headphones on, walking in the dark
listening to songs of happiness,
lost opportunities and first loves

those songs a soundtrack of my youth
pianos, drums, a guitar solo
wishing to return to that life
for only a moment
when dreams were only fantasies
and i didn't have to live the realities

only seven years beyond from then
but what a life it's been
and some days when i hear those songs again
i wish i could return to
the innocence of that simple life
years and years ago

choices

Fate?
As a series of choices
Actions
Reactions

So where I am now
Completely a result of the 3
What does it say about me
To be here
Waiting
Alone on the steps of a waterfall

The glass always shifting
From half full to
Half empty
And then back again
My life only a chain
Of reactions to
Everyone's actions

And I swallow my soul
Driven by the desire
Of hope and insanity
And again I keep the silence
Inside of me